Self esteem and the curvy woman

imageI’ve been feeling a bit down lately and I thought this would be a timely post to share with others who perhaps struggle as I do.

And guess what it’s about? You guessed it…my weight! And you know what did me in? That damn time hop feed thing on Facebook that reminds me what I was doing exactly 2 years ago!

So up pops a picture of a much thinner me.  I look at the picture and I forgot how slim I was. Ironically on my birthday with a bunch of cupcakes in front of me!!😂

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What that picture doesn’t show is the struggle I had to stay like that. I lost weight in a healthy way but omg I was so hungry!! I can’t honestly say I was happier per say. I suppose I felt better and had more energy but being preoccupied by hunger is no fun. I’m not even sure if I had one of those cupcakes, I must have but I bet it was only one!

And you know what the best part is that I commented on how this was in my slimmer days and the most wonderful outpouring of love and kindness came from my friends  saying that being thinner was the last thing I should be seeing in the picture! Honestly  I had to give my head a shake, they were right!!! I love you girls! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ You know who you are!!!

But still, behind my Instagram smile where I happily use hashtags such as #curvystyle #curvyfashion, etc I still feel self doubt on how I look everyday. Why am I writing this? Maybe for selfish reasons but mostly just to clear the cobwebs out of my own head 😂

I find it kind of interesting how someone such as myself who has almost 4000 followers on Instagram and pretty much posts a face selfie and body selfie almost everyday could  convince anyone that I actually do suffer from self esteem issues. I’m sure in fact some people who don’t know me probably think just the opposite, that I’m full of myself! Sort of like Megan Trainor’s song about wanting to be like her! lol!

What got me this weekend was some pics of me just out and about and I didn’t like what I saw. I didn’t realize that’s how I looked. I guess I realized that the way we perceive ourselves can be very different depending on the circumstances.  When I look at my IG pictures I usually don’t worry if I look heavy. Maybe it’s the camera angle, the clothes? Who knows!!  When I see a candid pic of me, I freak out!

So here is the picture I love to hate of me from this weekend!image

The thing I need to remember about this picture is that I was having so much fun and learned something new and I didn’t fall off and who cares how I looked, I was on a Segway!!

In the end I guess it doesn’t really matter. I do want to be healthier and I know I could definitely work on that. I’ll keep you posted on that!

So the point of this blog post? I just thought I would share my thoughts. I know others love me for who I am not what I look like so I’ll cut myself some slack and keep #honoringmycurves while trying to achieve better health!  I have lots of selfies I’ve got to take!!! 😂

 

4 thoughts on “Self esteem and the curvy woman

  1. Beatrice

    If you want to discuss huge, look at that enormous smile! You could not have posted a picture showing greater happiness. You also deserve a huge round of applause for taking on the new challenging adventure of this Segway tour. There are so many positives in your life and you bring much joy to those around you.

    I do think that particular angle of your body shows it to its worst advantage, with the camera distorting the parts closest to it; straight on or sideways would have been both more accurate and more flattering. Note: Laureen Harper advocates that semi-sideways pose as the most flattering look for a woman – and that’s just one more thing for an opinionated person like me to disagree with a Harper about!
    I conquer hunger with exercise, protein, high fibre, herbal tea, and soup. My weight is a huge struggle for me, and progress could not be slower, but even though I mostly lose the same five pounds over and over, there is a general downward trend. This is important to me. Still, my weight is hardly my highest priority.
    You do so much right in your life, and you do work on being healthy. Take well-deserved credit for doing the best you can under the circumstances on the weight issue and for excelling in so many other areas . xxox

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  2. Cheryl

    I believe that it will take generations to get rid of the unreal expectations created (yes subliminally as well) by media, clothing designers, and people with no real life.
    It is hard to remember its more important to be happy inside, enjoy the small wonders and appreciate what you have when the clothing store only cares size 0. and the peer pressure of looking skinny,, and todays culture of free speech.
    Healthy also includes the mind, hopefully the rest follows. Thanks for sharing Lynda, so many females have this image problem and talking about it is freeing.

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